JOANNE LIANGYEE

2010-12-16T01:33:00.001-08:00

What is going on with my life?
What happened to my relationship?
What's the problem between me and him?
Is it because sticking with him everyday will make our relationship turned sour?
Why he just can't took the initiative to message and calll me?
Why can't i hold his hands or arm when we go out?
Why does he get so awkward?
What's the matter with that?
Couples don't usually do that?
Why just I can't have the relationship like joreen and sean?
Why do I need to suffer like that?
Why do i need to endure and tolerate the pain that is deeply engraved in my heart?
Why does this so?
I am so hurt.
But I do not know how to approached him.
I don't know how to talk to him.
Please GOD, just simple tell me what to do....

It's been a long time I last posted.

2010-11-19T04:13:00.000-08:00

Love the accompany of boyfriend.:D
He changed alot.
He becomes sweeter and sweeter.
Will be giving him a surprise for our six month anniversary.
Hope he will like the gift that I gave him.
And also, my birthday is coming.
don't know what surprise he will gave me.
Just really hope that he didn't worked on that day.
I just wanted him to accompany that's all, that will be my greastest gift I ever had.
Love my dear forever!!!!!
You are just so cute that I wanted to pinch you and kiss you if you let me do.

I am tired!

2010-11-04T22:54:00.000-07:00

Things that I have done, has already been done. Its up to you whether anot to appreciate it.
It's always a form of respect.
No one will really took the initiative to care about what I does.
No one will ever care about me.
No one will really knows what I am thinking.
So what, they even opened their mouth to ask , I will not even say.

Sick and tired of everything!
No meaning at all.

Wild and satisfied!

2010-10-27T09:54:00.001-07:00

HAHA, you should know when couples being together, for sure we would do something wrong.:D

It' was a good one today!! love it:D

SHIOK LIKE SIAO!!!

Even I could not even"ah" properly!

Dear was powerful!!!

HAHAHHAHHAHHH:D LMAO!!!

LOVE YOU MY DEAREST!!!!

OH MY, DEAR WAS SPEECHLESS IN ME!!!!!!!

2010-10-27T07:12:00.000-07:00

I am been smoking one stick after one stick not long ago.

Dear keep asking and stopping me of not to smoke too much, but I didn't heed his advice.

I am really sorry of what i done!

Hope you could forgive me!:(

I JUST SIMPLY HATE MY LIFE!:(

2010-10-27T07:05:00.000-07:00

I JUST SIMPLY HATE MY LIFE THAT I HAVING NOW!!!!

FUCK MY LIFE!

TODAY WAS BEING "SO CALLED" POPULAR IN SCHOOL!!!!

THANKS TO SOMEONE BY JUST SCREAMING AND YELLING AT ME FOR NO REASON!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT DID I DID WRONG????

BY JUST NOT INFORMING HIM THAT I WAS AT THE BACK STAGE HELPING THE MODELS TO MAKE UP AS THEY ARE HAVING THE HAIR FASHION SHOW???

DO HE NEED TO YELL AT ME IN PUBLIC?

HE DON'T WANT FACE, BUT I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S ATROCIOUS AND UGLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I JUST HATE HIM TO THE CORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IDIOTIC FREAKO!!!!!

JESUS!!!! HE'S JUST AN INSANE PERSON THAT A BRAIN DOESN'T EXIST IN HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML

It's getting more and more bored!

2010-10-27T03:41:00.000-07:00

What am I going to do??????

How?

What solutions would you give me?

Is this the way of doing it?

Does it worked?

Do you think is correct of doing it?

This are all the questions that keep running through my mind.

How is it possible for me to do it where he's a friend to me?

Ask him to just give up or go on?

Will he listened to my advice?

Will he?

I think the possibilities might be less than 40%.

Or I just ignore him and let him do what he wants?

Am i controlling him?

No, i guess??

OH MY, HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was the best day ever!:D

2010-10-27T03:28:00.000-07:00

Today saw the whole scene of the hair fashion graduation ceremony!

It was the fantastic and awesome one!

The models are wonderful and the hairstyles were so stylish!:D

Simply love it!

Saw the Handsome hair fashion student, all girls just simply scream and cheer for him including me!:D

He catches my eyes all the time when I saw him.

My heart beat will simple pump faster and cheeks will get red eventually!:D

haha:D He got the certificate from the judge:D

Awesome!:)

Today didn't wake my Dear up on time!

2010-10-26T01:43:00.000-07:00

Haha, today didn't wake him up on time.

Got a bit scolding but after all, we're still fine.

Hired a taxi and he went off:D

And, i was the one who need to squeeze in train and go to school.

Nevermind, haha:D

Today saw the rehearsal of the hair fashion show.

Was indeed a nice cat walks but somehow or another, a bunch of stupid girls kept repeating the same mistakes over and over again.

DUMB ASS!!!

Loves is like this!

2010-10-25T18:20:00.000-07:00

It's always easy to fall for a person, like a person, admire a person or love a person.

But it's difficult to grab a person's heart.

In order to let the person love you more, you need to put in your best effort to satisfy them.

To maintain a relationship, is to try to give and take.

Both parties have the responsibilities to do their part in every stage of their love.

Love a person is like loving yourself.

You will think of not letting him go and stayed with him forever.

Love everything that he does or even moved.

Because he's your everything!

Just like my boyfriend!

He's the sweetest of all!!!

Dear today went to camp to do Blood test!

2010-10-25T04:32:00.001-07:00

Today dear went to camp and do his blood test.

Was supposed to be ORD last friday but the blood test was delayed.

Was injected 4 times and have a so called" big bandage", I guess?

haha:D

Today at school was like dreaming and in a daze.

Answered my friends one to two words that's all.

Very Jialat!!

Freaking exhausted!!!

2010-10-25T02:42:00.000-07:00

Today was so tired till I don't have the energy to stay awake in class.

Now, feel like sleeping and don't wake up.

Body are aching like hell!!

Sianzation:(

POOR THING!

2010-10-24T10:47:00.000-07:00

Oh my, my boy still haven't come home yet.

It's 1.50am now, and he's still working.

My God, tomorrow still need to do blood test.

Where he got that energy to wake up and go to camp at 8 am?'

Must buy him sweets for him to mumb.

Felt so sad, need to work in order to "so called" feed me.

East Coast with all my darlings!

2010-10-24T09:52:00.000-07:00

Went out at 5.30pm to meet my darlings( Jeremy, Matthew, Johnathon, Willy, David, Jasmine, Priscillia, Rachel and Silver)

Went to East Coast and capture this photo.

Feel so stressed and starts to throw stones and pebbles.

SCREAMED AND SHOUTED!

Felt much more better after that.:D

Thanks to them to just come down and accompany me.

LOVE YOU!!!

Dear, i'm sorry.:(

2010-10-24T01:44:00.000-07:00

Sorry that I did not withdraw money out from my bank.

Dear couldn't buy his cigarettes, and you might be suffering at work now.

I'm really sorry, saw your face expression.

Made my heart sank, just put the blame on me.

Maybe you would feel better, I guess?

Still love you always:D

MY LOVE LOVE!

2010-10-23T08:54:00.000-07:00

MY LOVELY BOYFRIEND!!!!!
MUACKS ,LOVE YOU LIKE HELL!!!

WANT TO SPAM YOU IN MY BLOG!!!

HAHA:D

2010-10-23T08:41:00.001-07:00

Waiting for dear to come back from work.

Got to wait patiently.

haix..

WHERE ARE YOU??

A guy that I couldn't forget till now!

2010-10-23T07:17:00.000-07:00

Why people tend to not forget about the ones that they loved before?

People tends to remember the times that they have shared and been together

Memories could not be vanished in their mind and will thinks of them frequently.

Just like my ex boyfriend.

He's a male model and his name is weiming.

A guy which is an age of 20, have his own car, own condo, own career.

A guy that would fulfill what you wanted.

A sweet and caring guy that all girls wanted.

Handsome!

Still remembered that he brought me to Fullerton Hotel on our 1st year anniversary.

He organised a programme which I didn't know at first.

He started playing piano, and violinlist beside me , playing the songs that he used to sing to me.

After that, a bouquet of roses appeared infront of me, and the lights get dimmer.

Candlelight dinner. The beef steak that I was craving for my whole entire life dished out.

Gave him a big big kiss and hugged him.

And, he said, " May I have a dance with you?" OH MY, that moment I don't even know who I am anymore. :D

But He have died at an accident and I was there and have saw the whole scene by my own eyes.

Still remembered that day, we went for shopping and bought lots of stuffs.

So decided to sit at the back seat. Front seat was all covered with stuffs and also the back seat.

He was driving through Yio Chu Kang Road and suddenly he crashed to a car and flew out.

I flew and landed on the road but he was further than me.

I get up and ran to see him in a condition whereby my bones was fractured.

He was all covered with blood.

He holded my hand and told me that to forget about me and and continue your life. I am sorry. I was like screaming and crying like mad.

Ambulance came and when we reached the hospital, he died.

And, it was three weeks before ROM.

He even designed a diamond ring but the dreams of me and him have already gone.

His parents kept saying me I am a jinx, I have murdered his son.

I went to his funeral but fifteen minutes later, was being chased out.

Was totally depressed till I got severe depression, bulimia, anoroxia.

Went up to the top of the building and decided to jump down but my good friend, melvin grabbed me and hugged me.

He told me not to die but I was out of control, kept saying all those things that hurt him.

I kept blaming myself, why wasn't me that have died but why he?

Loved him till I couldn't even control myself.

That time, was going to be insane, like a mad woman.

Kept on crying everyday.

Till now, i can't even put aside this matter.

Recently, 13 october 2010 was his third year anniversary.

Every year will buy things and burn it to him.

All my girlfriends said I am crazy, but don't you think tat there's a reason behind it?

Upset..

But I know his spirit and soul are still beside me wherever i goes.

So, I should continue with my life with my current boyfriend and let him know that I am happy with him.

My love for him is still there...

LIFE, LIFE, LIFE!!!!!!

2010-10-23T06:11:00.000-07:00

Life is all we needed, to stay unique and happy.

What's the meaning of life?

The meaning of life constitutes a philosophical question concerning the purpose and significance of life or existence in general.

The meaning of life is deeply mixed with the philosophical and religious conceptions of existence, consciousness and happiness, and touches on many issues, such as symbolic meaning , ontology, value, purpose, ethnics, good and evil, free will, conceptions of god, the soul and the afterlife.

Treasure our life as we only have the chance to live once.

Don't think of committing suicide because of just a break-off with your loved ones, quarrels, misunderstandings.

Life is precious, is just like water. If there's no water, we will die of lacking of water.

If there's no life, would we be here?

NO! Parents gave birth to us as to have a purpose to stay on in this life.

Do all those things that you haven't had any experience and leave no regrets.

Love your life, love yourself.

Don't hesitate and complained over what kind of life you have because we don't even have a choice to choose.

God gave us this, and we should eventually take it.

Changed it with both of our hands, aim for that life you always wanted and off you go.

Your goals are still ahead, grabbed it when that's the stage.

SMILES and move on your life even if you feel sake of living.

Reality is a reality, fact is a fact.

We can't predict what will happened tomorrow, so love each day and do something that is meaningful.

Your life would always be so happening and exciting and will slowly forget the unhappiness of each day.

Try to change it if you think that today you haven't do what you really wanted.

Try to fulfill the wishes you wanted.

Life will forever be interesting if everyone thinks it this way.:D

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!!!

2010-10-23T05:35:00.000-07:00

The whole world have revolves about love and kept talking about love.

But what's the meaning of love?

Someone who makes you feel good about living , who brings out the you who is joyful and giving .

Something that gives you a chance to be strong, or trust in another to help you along.

Somewhere that you feel like you've been forever, a place where you're growing and learning together.

THIS IS THE REAL MEANING OF LOVE!:D

It meant to involve both parties to work together and maintain a relationship.

Chemistry of love will tend to slowly be seen.

Power of love will make them stronger.

The bond will eventually get closer.

And, they both will love each other more.

Marriage would be the consent of their love.

A guarantee of how their love started.

This is what I called love!

Both of them won't leave each other apart.

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!

2010-10-23T04:06:00.000-07:00

His name is Samuel Yong Yu Jing.

Birthday falls on 20 january every year.

His age: 21

Horoscope: Aquarius

Attached with me on 24 may 2010.

LIKES: love milk

love babies and children

love eggs

love cheese

love tomato sauce

love isotonic drinks

love apples

love rice

love hotdogs

love gadgets

love boots

love bananas

love watermelon

love guava

love starfruits

love black and grey

love sunglasses

and of course, love me

DISLIKES:

gassy drinks

lying

betraying

backstabbing

penniless

using my money

being cheated by love

vegetables

horror movies( boring)

We are both living in the same world, same country.

And, I have been eyeing him for three years already.

He chatted with me on facebook and I was so happy as I have the chance to know him more.

Immediately, I gave my handphone number to him. Haha:D

Both strangers met on 23 may outside my college.

Went to east point for dinner and send me home.

Took the initiative to ask me for a relationship and was together at 2305pm on 24 may 2010.

After being together for so long, he's really a guy that you should get to know him more.

Maybe his first impression that gave you would be a stupid and folly face. And, you may think how could I even chat with him?

No, you are really wrong. He's a guy that is really loving, caring which he didn't show it out all the time. A cute and good looking guy that you wished to kiss, pinch and hug him whenever and wherever he goes.

Would love the accompany of him and would feel weird when he's not around.

He's a mature thinking man, straight-forward guy. Wants to see the fact then he could really believe this matter really happens, if not, sorry. NO!!!

Would tell you off straight away of what we does that he don't really think is right.

A guy that you couldn't live without and would love to live with him under a roof forever.

A guy that could cook, sew, take cares of family.

A workaholic and loves giving surprises which you don't even know or an instinct that calls us.

A sudden person and goes wild!:D

A guy that loves babies and children.

A guy that loves historical stuffs and have plenty of general knowledge in his mind. Is like a dictionary walking around:D

A guy that wanted a lot of things badly but couldn't afford it. And you would like to fulfill all his wishes eventually.:D

A guy that you wished to keep with you forever!

A guy that could use his imagination by making glass globes. Use satay sticks and turn into a pencil case and icecream sticks into childhood play. Could use metal to carve out words and into accessories. Could use just wood to carve out a rose or anything with his pen knife.

A guy that have certificates of taekwondo, karate, akido, judo. Powerful strength.

A guy that could not mess with, if not, your life would be dead.

A guy that would not abuse or beat girlfriend.

A guy that loves remote airplanes, cars, motorbikes.

A guy that have his own unique style

and could help girls to put on make up or even help them to mix and match with clothings.

A guy that loves to purchase Dvds and watch movies.

Don't you think this guy is wonderful? Where can I find this guy in this world? Is really rare.

SO fortunate that I have the chance to meet him.

Dear/baby, I swear and promise that I would love you like how I love myself.

Would cherish, treasure, love and dote you like nobody's business.

Would never leave you and let you go because you are my everything.

I LOVE YOU!!

Thanks to my cute little sister, I am happy today!:D

2010-10-23T02:50:00.000-07:00

Have a great chat with my sister just now.

Was talking about her stuffs and family and then movies.

She told me all horror movies were scary and she kinda hate it.

Haha:D

was happy today after all!:D

HAPPY FIFITH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!:D

2010-10-22T22:51:00.000-07:00

HAPPY FIFTH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!:D

I know that's tomorrow but i just can't wait to post this post!!!!:D

You know how much I love you, just want to tell you that i will never let you go!

The spaces between my fingers are meant for your fingers to slip through it .

It's really hard for two strangers to meet together. Karma is the bitch!.

I definitely will treasure , love and dote you like nobody's business.:D

You are all mine!!!

Muacks!!! LOVE YOU

Dear told me that He's not coming back home for that 4 days!:"(

2010-10-22T22:21:00.000-07:00

Dear told me the next next week , he's not coming back as he needed to do midnight turnover.

Got to do settings, backstage set up and etc.

I was so devastated and I cried like mad.

Felt so lonely without him.:"(

NO words could described my feelings now.

pathetic, worked like a mad dog ,just to earn that amount of money.

Oh darling!:'(((

Today went to Eunos, but in the end, all wasted!!

2010-10-22T22:01:00.000-07:00

Dear called me at 10.33am and asked me to take his leather shoes to Eunos.

Just to change his shoe sole.

Went out at 11.13am and in the end, that uncle was not there.

ARGRHH!! hate it:(

So, I went to the mrt station to withdraw money out to replenish the groceries in the fridge.

Bought two 1.5 litre of green tea and peach tea.

Bought two big packets of Lays and Calbee chips.

Bought four 500ml of isotonic drinks.

And was like freaking heavy because I still need to carry the leather shoes back home.

So, Walked a long long distance + climbing the overhead bridge, then finally reached home.

Placed all the stuffs and went to the shop to buy a 1.5 litre of H2o and two daisy milks because dear loves to drink it.

He's just a milk tooth:D HAHA!

Finally, I am done with all the shoppings and finally I can sit down and rest.

Both hands was shaking like mad. Maybe is because I have used too much energy and strength to carry all those stuffs with my hands.

Woo~, And got to cook some noodles for myself for lunch and smoke after that.

Felt a relief of getting to smoke that one stick.

Mucus kept on running down, haha. Maybe is addicted to it.:D

See how I dote my dear?? Bought so many stuffs just for him:)

HAHA!

Dear was so pathetic:(

2010-10-22T10:08:00.000-07:00

Dear have to wake up at 6.30am to work. So tiring for him.

Got to work at crowne plaza hotel at 8am.

8am to 1am.

And also, I will be get lonely for tomorrow.

sadded and depressed.

will be waiting for you, lovely!

Not long ago, went to bugis with boyfriend!

2010-10-22T09:55:00.000-07:00

Dear went out of house at 12.48pm and was off to camp.

At 2.33 pm, he called me and suggested of going to bugis for a stroll.

So I get myself prepared and bused there.

Went to buy his stationary stuffs.

He decided to watch the regent of assansians.

We went to ILUMA to buy the tickets.

Went to Subway to grab a bite and off to the theatre.

When I was in the middle of the show, I was shivering like hell.

When dear saw it, he grabbed my hand and gave me warmth. LOVE YOU!!

Touched like hell!!

My rating for the show is 4/5 and his rating is 3.5/5.

After that, went out to smoke and catched a bus to eunos mrt station to check whether the man that was helping people to make shoes was there. But in the end, he's not there.

Dear was deciding of changing the bottom of his leather shoe sole as it was worn-out.

So, decided of getting up tomorrow to help him changed the shoe sole.

HAHA, indeed today I was satisified as dear was all mine!!

MUACKS, ILOVEYOU!!

Haha, bought my anna nucci red heels and a new dress!

2010-10-22T09:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday woke up at 12 pm, and jeremy kor called me.

He asked whether I wanted to go out, so I agreed.

Trained down from boyfriend's house to somerset.

Was shocked whereby all black men came down.

They even took the initiative to carry my bag.

Hugged me and gave me kisses! wow, was so touched.

Accompanied me for shopping. Went round the whole shopping mall and finally saw what I wanted.

Bought the heels which cost$32.30 and the dress at $25.

Went out to smoke and chatted.

After that, was time to HSH!

They accompanied me to eunos mrt station and send me off.

Hugged them all and then i'm off.

BROTHERS, I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

Welcome back to my blogging life!:)

2010-10-21T21:16:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since I last posted on blog

Now back again!

Would be starting to post everyday to record down all my dos and dones.